This blog is about our relationship together and things we've been threw as a couple and how we came about <3
Every since I've been working at All-Star Trans. there was a guy named Ed and he was pretty much down to earth nice guy. We've gotten to know each-other day by day and we would always have a good time just texting back in forth, lol.
One of our co-workers (leaving out name) invited us to go bowling with her and her man at the time and I was so excited for it; I really was for sure cause knowing Eddie would be there. I drove Ed with me since at the time he didn't have a car and we were just talking away. As we were all bowling I feel more for Ed but wans't sure what he felt about me so I didn't know what to tell him. When bowling was over I was bringing him home to his old house and I didn't wanna drop him off cause we were having such a good time, ahhh.
During our friendship we use to go to Dairy Bar like crazy with other co-workers of mine as well and I got to meet his parents who were so sweet. His Step-Dad Butch made sure I finished my plate as well.
Now when it was a day or so before my 22nd birthday I told Ed I wish I had a certain gift that I always wanted... now I wasn't telling him to get it for me, no way I'm NOT like that. I told him how I wish I had a Ps2 cause my younger brother has the former one, well did though it was both of ours... anyways... Ed was like I will get you it!!... I was like WHAT!?!?! No way you don't have too and that would be rude if you got it for me, but he wanted too but NOT and I mean NOT cause I told him how I wish I had one.. so don't even try to assume or think that I wanted him too losers... so the next day we went to Walmart to go to get ps2 and I wanted the silver one cause I just wanted too... but it wasn't working so the next day I told Ed and we went back to exchange it for a black one. After we went to my house to test it and I tell you it was a blessing that he did this for me when I DIDN'T want him too <3
Now threw out the months we talked and hung out...etc but then during the summer of 08' he feel in love with one of our co-workers (not saying name) and so we talked lesser and less which kind of was hard cause he was my friend but at least he was happy only back then lol. Then once work started up again I heard he got engaged to the co-worker of ours and ya it sucked that it wasn't me with him but I was happy for him.
Once Obama got elected for pres.. things went more crazy then I thought. The co-worker he was engaged too was starting some crazy crap about Obama and my driver that I had then wasn't happy about it period not cause he was Black or what not but the things she said was really wrong and that co-worker got made at me that I didn't do nothing about the issues but first off it wasn't my damn biz what was going on. During the next day Ed wasn't happy at me but either was I cause of what happened. Ed sent me a nasty text message that was about my driver and kind of me too and I was like NO WAY!!! This isn't the Ed I've known before, heck no. I mean I can see where he was mad but still. I reported him to the boss on the matter and he got sent to the office but deep inside I wish I didn't... cause he wasn't thrilled about it but I didn't know what to do. After a dew days then months we haven't really talked much and I was in pain cause of that.
Then around spring time I asked him if we can be friends again... he said maybe we will see. I told him how I felt about the matter and he forgave me and was no longer mad at me... plus he wasn't with that co-workers of ours anymore since she broke up with Ed for whatever reason. He doesn't blame me for what I did and he told me its the passed and that we shouldn't even worry about it no more.
When my brother Nick was over to visit and sleep over my house for the night me, him, and Ed went to go to the movies to see Mall Cop. He was still living at the "co-workers" house but they weren't together anymore. I was so happy to see Ed again; I really was. I gave him a nice big hug and all. We ate at Taco Bell cause thats how we roll then we went to the movie theater but the movie on the comp had the wrong time so we sat there just talking away about random awesome stuff.
During the summer of '09 we met at Relay to help out as well but something awesome happened we became close again then ever before... more then the first time we've ever met, seriously. He had feelings for me though I did not know that, lol. As the summer was starting getting better everytime I had dunkin donuts or micky d's he would be like "Oh no you didn't.. go there" but then we starting saying the word "TOTALLY" none stop so now that is our word so to say. I started to like / love him even more and I couldn't help it. I wanted to ask him out but I was like not sure plus I wanted him to ask me out, tehe; I know silly meee.
Then on October 10th I was at my bros h.s party that they do every year for his kind of people as in special needs; I told Ed in a text that he has no guts to give me a kiss cause we started to fall in love with each-other, so after the dance we went to dunkin donuts where he was hanging out with is palls and we were having a blast. When the store closed at 11 I was just waiting for the kiss so then outta no wheres he kisses me right on the lips.. I was in complete shock but in a good way. I didn't even know what to say after that though it was the best kiss ever. I drove him all red and like in that OMG moment.
Here is one of the BEST moments of my life other then that kiss... on October 12th it was the day of the Yankees vs. Philis game at the new Yankee stadium and I was texting Ed about it on what was going on. I told him at one point... "I CAN'T WATCH THIS NO MORE I'M NERVUS" which I was cuause I didn't know if we would made it our not cause I think we were at 1 and Philis at 3 so I was flipping threw channels. I dared him to ask me out and NOT in a rude way but see if he really liked me that much to even ask me out. He was like if the Yankees win I will ask you out... I was like "WHAT THATS NOT FAIR LOL" .... but he was just kidding. He asked me out anyways and I was like awww.... but I ask if he was upset that I dared him he was like no cause I was going to ask you out anyways even if its not this day but I so totally would've asked you out no matter what.
I am truly blessed that I have the best boyfriend ever in my life. We had so many good times together during our time as a couple. I don't regret anything and that I love him forever and always. Sorry b*tches he is mine now <3
Monday, August 16, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Friendship of Me and Aimee!!!
Aimee and I became best friends around sometime in September of '08. We worked at the same place and I asked her for her aim s/n so we can talk more to get to know each-other as well. After talking for a few days or so we became best friends. We hung out and had sleep overs as well.
During the time of our friendship my car as died on me and it was hard for me to get around and I was bored on break as well just staying at work with nothing to do. She invited me to her house on break and her mom Kori would bring me which was so sweet of them. They opened their house to me and I felt loved.
Every time I've went over her house we would always have a good time together. Aimee got me hooked on Dance Dance Revolution and I didn't know what they heck I was doing when it came to that game but she showed me what to do. I told her about my eye brows how I always wanted them like hers though not that small as she had it and she pluked them which I was freakin out about cause I hated being pluked though I trusted her lol.
I remember going to T.G.I.Fridays for dinner one time and she had my order the electric fizz or whatever it was called so she can have a few ships though I wasn't suppose too but she was my best friend big whoop since we shared it anyways. My sister was my waitress so we had to be really careful, lol. Mostly every friday we would go shopping at the mall on our break and Aeropostale use to be our favorite store. We should shop like crazy. Sometimes we would go to the gym during the weekdays to work our sexy asses off. We use to hang at Daves house at times and have sleep overs too... yes we had sleep overs at my ex's house believe it or not.
Talking about the ex we went to Mohegan Sun for the night and to sleep at the hotel there.. at one point Dave and I had a big fight but though was not my fault cause he was all boozed up.. Aimee and or course our friend Brian who went with us was there for me and comforted me which I thank them a lot for.
Aimee did 2 photo shoots of me and she did an amazing job, she really did. I love all the picture's she took of me. To me she was my personal photographer. She has a lot of cats in her house and I tell you Aimz cat Bob was something else for sure but I fell in love with Muffin and that cat adores me too.
During the summer of '09 we started to go to our hot spot Black Rock. We both went there like crazy like mostly every day and we met some guy named Mike there though lost contact but it was awesome.
Since we worked at the same place we would meet each other every morning together and hang out and have a good time even with my love Ed. Aimee invited him over at times to hang out with us. Aimee and her mom had us over for Thanksgiving i which was so sweet of her and her mom Kori of course. That night I slept over Aimee's house and then we were going to the mall the next day since it was black friday where sales are the best, tehe.
We were invited to this party in the winter time somewhere in Danbury. Me, Ed, Aimz, and her former man Chris went there together and we brought our friend Michelle with us too. On our way there we got lost trying to find the house the party was at so we went in circles lol but then found the place after passing it so many times. It was suppose to be a nasty night due to a snow storm but that wasn't till later on at night sometime. Our other friend Esther was there as well having a good time. I don't remember what time it was but sometime the storm started to come and we had to go... and we left around 12ish. During our journey on the way home it was tuff seeing where I was going and the roads were bad but I got everyone home safe... we got to Aimee house around 4:00 in the morning cause of the crazy weather.
Aimee, Chris, Me, and Ed spent New years together so we went to Friendly's all dolled up as me and her were wearing dresses, then once we got back to her house we were watching some creppy show about something before the ball was about the drop.
Then things after awhile started to go wrong.... since I was hanging out with Jenna, Annie, and Steve more I felt like I was leaving Aimee behind and it didn't click to me until later on. I felt so bad that I was leaving my best friend behind like that outta no wheres. We didn't spend much time together anymore and it was killing me. We had a big fight since I didn't wanna go to the Otep concert with her and Danielle because the "other friends of mine" were telling me not too cause of the cell bill cause Aimee was on my plan for awhile and she downloaded things thinking it was no big deal. Ya I was upset about it but I wish I didn't listen to them at all. I wanted to go to the Opet concert so badly, do not get me wrong.
After awhile I told Aimee how I felt about everything and what happened. She knew it wasn't my fault that I didn't want to go to the concert and what not which I was so happy about. I was so glad to be her best friend again. I wanted to cry too but in a happy way of course.
The day of my 24th birthday Aimee and her mom were throwing me a birthday party for me. Muffin the cat so to speak helped Kori make the cake for me which it was so yummy. It was the best birthday ever, seriously it was. Aimee give me a sexy birthday card with a hot guy on the front of it ... Aimee told me she wishes she got me something as a gift but I told her don't worry about it cause you got me a card and thats all that matters. Plus to me I didn't deserve a gift for what I did to her though she knows it wasn't my fault.
Illusions was hosting a 80's theme party on a Friday night not sure of day and we decided to go together with our best friend Amanda who is freakin amazing, but that night at Illusions wasn't the only one that was fun and interesting... there was a hula party one that just me and Aimee went too. We noticed that certain person that was there that I dislike for what she had me do to my girl Aimee which was Annie and I was really pissed about that she was there. Aimee went up gave Annie the finger but Annie walked away cause she had nothing else to say or do, ha. We left Illusions and one of my other friends said enough we need to talk about this what was going on between Annie and I. Aimee wanted to join not just cause she wanted to say a few words to Annie but to be there for me and she was which I was grateful about.
There were other times we that we Aimee and I had together that were so fun but our last fun time together before she moved to where she is now.. is that us hanging out and having a sleep over at her house. It was like good old times we had together and bad enough she got me fat on Wendys but she wanted to feed me like crazy but not in a rude way. As we were about to go to bed we were talking about random funny things.
-THE END
I MISS YOU AIMEE YOU ARE THE BETEST FRIEND EVER!!!!!!!
During the time of our friendship my car as died on me and it was hard for me to get around and I was bored on break as well just staying at work with nothing to do. She invited me to her house on break and her mom Kori would bring me which was so sweet of them. They opened their house to me and I felt loved.
Every time I've went over her house we would always have a good time together. Aimee got me hooked on Dance Dance Revolution and I didn't know what they heck I was doing when it came to that game but she showed me what to do. I told her about my eye brows how I always wanted them like hers though not that small as she had it and she pluked them which I was freakin out about cause I hated being pluked though I trusted her lol.
I remember going to T.G.I.Fridays for dinner one time and she had my order the electric fizz or whatever it was called so she can have a few ships though I wasn't suppose too but she was my best friend big whoop since we shared it anyways. My sister was my waitress so we had to be really careful, lol. Mostly every friday we would go shopping at the mall on our break and Aeropostale use to be our favorite store. We should shop like crazy. Sometimes we would go to the gym during the weekdays to work our sexy asses off. We use to hang at Daves house at times and have sleep overs too... yes we had sleep overs at my ex's house believe it or not.
Talking about the ex we went to Mohegan Sun for the night and to sleep at the hotel there.. at one point Dave and I had a big fight but though was not my fault cause he was all boozed up.. Aimee and or course our friend Brian who went with us was there for me and comforted me which I thank them a lot for.
Aimee did 2 photo shoots of me and she did an amazing job, she really did. I love all the picture's she took of me. To me she was my personal photographer. She has a lot of cats in her house and I tell you Aimz cat Bob was something else for sure but I fell in love with Muffin and that cat adores me too.
During the summer of '09 we started to go to our hot spot Black Rock. We both went there like crazy like mostly every day and we met some guy named Mike there though lost contact but it was awesome.
Since we worked at the same place we would meet each other every morning together and hang out and have a good time even with my love Ed. Aimee invited him over at times to hang out with us. Aimee and her mom had us over for Thanksgiving i which was so sweet of her and her mom Kori of course. That night I slept over Aimee's house and then we were going to the mall the next day since it was black friday where sales are the best, tehe.
We were invited to this party in the winter time somewhere in Danbury. Me, Ed, Aimz, and her former man Chris went there together and we brought our friend Michelle with us too. On our way there we got lost trying to find the house the party was at so we went in circles lol but then found the place after passing it so many times. It was suppose to be a nasty night due to a snow storm but that wasn't till later on at night sometime. Our other friend Esther was there as well having a good time. I don't remember what time it was but sometime the storm started to come and we had to go... and we left around 12ish. During our journey on the way home it was tuff seeing where I was going and the roads were bad but I got everyone home safe... we got to Aimee house around 4:00 in the morning cause of the crazy weather.
Aimee, Chris, Me, and Ed spent New years together so we went to Friendly's all dolled up as me and her were wearing dresses, then once we got back to her house we were watching some creppy show about something before the ball was about the drop.
Then things after awhile started to go wrong.... since I was hanging out with Jenna, Annie, and Steve more I felt like I was leaving Aimee behind and it didn't click to me until later on. I felt so bad that I was leaving my best friend behind like that outta no wheres. We didn't spend much time together anymore and it was killing me. We had a big fight since I didn't wanna go to the Otep concert with her and Danielle because the "other friends of mine" were telling me not too cause of the cell bill cause Aimee was on my plan for awhile and she downloaded things thinking it was no big deal. Ya I was upset about it but I wish I didn't listen to them at all. I wanted to go to the Opet concert so badly, do not get me wrong.
After awhile I told Aimee how I felt about everything and what happened. She knew it wasn't my fault that I didn't want to go to the concert and what not which I was so happy about. I was so glad to be her best friend again. I wanted to cry too but in a happy way of course.
The day of my 24th birthday Aimee and her mom were throwing me a birthday party for me. Muffin the cat so to speak helped Kori make the cake for me which it was so yummy. It was the best birthday ever, seriously it was. Aimee give me a sexy birthday card with a hot guy on the front of it ... Aimee told me she wishes she got me something as a gift but I told her don't worry about it cause you got me a card and thats all that matters. Plus to me I didn't deserve a gift for what I did to her though she knows it wasn't my fault.
Illusions was hosting a 80's theme party on a Friday night not sure of day and we decided to go together with our best friend Amanda who is freakin amazing, but that night at Illusions wasn't the only one that was fun and interesting... there was a hula party one that just me and Aimee went too. We noticed that certain person that was there that I dislike for what she had me do to my girl Aimee which was Annie and I was really pissed about that she was there. Aimee went up gave Annie the finger but Annie walked away cause she had nothing else to say or do, ha. We left Illusions and one of my other friends said enough we need to talk about this what was going on between Annie and I. Aimee wanted to join not just cause she wanted to say a few words to Annie but to be there for me and she was which I was grateful about.
There were other times we that we Aimee and I had together that were so fun but our last fun time together before she moved to where she is now.. is that us hanging out and having a sleep over at her house. It was like good old times we had together and bad enough she got me fat on Wendys but she wanted to feed me like crazy but not in a rude way. As we were about to go to bed we were talking about random funny things.
-THE END
I MISS YOU AIMEE YOU ARE THE BETEST FRIEND EVER!!!!!!!
Friday, August 13, 2010
A day with Toto... my hubbies brother : )
Toto is my mans brother and he lives in Iowa somewhere and I tell you it was so good seeing him today and hanging with him. He goes back in a few more days though I wish he didn't but he has too.
We all planned to hang out today and go have lunch. We were going to go to Chili's but we weren't really feeling it at all so we decided to go to Red Robin in West Hartford since thats the closest one where we were anyways lol.
I was so happy to get to see him again so I picked up Ed from work then went right to his brothers house where Toto was staying at for the time he was here in CT. Once we picked up Toto all the fun begain. We started to talk about police officers and how we got screwed over by them when we didn't really break the law on speed limits or what not even though they think we did. I had to bring Ed to the bank so once he was inside getting his money... I was in the car with Toto and we were talking about random things and it was awesome.
On the way to Red Robin people didn't know how to freakin drive at all on 84 as usually. I told Toto and Ed I'm shocked I didn't kill anyone, tehe. As we were going I got off the exit onto another small little highway we were talking and I missed the exit I was suppose to get off because we were having such a good time together, but thank god we had the GPS.
Once we got to Red Robin we sat down and Toto was telling the waitress where he was from and so on and the waitress was so nice unlike other ones we ever had at different restureants. We gotta some pics together and what not. It was funny how Toto and I looked like twins on what we were wearing (color wise) and how are hair color was the same as well.
After Red Robin we went to target just to brows around for the fun of it and I told Toto I hope we are not boring you out and he said we weren't which is a good thing. After target we headed back to Prospect to drop off Toto and we were still having a good time just talking aboiut things and I'm blessed I got to know him even more then before.
Once we dropped him off I didn't want him to leave because he is such an awesome guy. He gave me a nice big hug which felt nice... and no I don't mean that in a werid way either.
-The End <3
We all planned to hang out today and go have lunch. We were going to go to Chili's but we weren't really feeling it at all so we decided to go to Red Robin in West Hartford since thats the closest one where we were anyways lol.
I was so happy to get to see him again so I picked up Ed from work then went right to his brothers house where Toto was staying at for the time he was here in CT. Once we picked up Toto all the fun begain. We started to talk about police officers and how we got screwed over by them when we didn't really break the law on speed limits or what not even though they think we did. I had to bring Ed to the bank so once he was inside getting his money... I was in the car with Toto and we were talking about random things and it was awesome.
On the way to Red Robin people didn't know how to freakin drive at all on 84 as usually. I told Toto and Ed I'm shocked I didn't kill anyone, tehe. As we were going I got off the exit onto another small little highway we were talking and I missed the exit I was suppose to get off because we were having such a good time together, but thank god we had the GPS.
Once we got to Red Robin we sat down and Toto was telling the waitress where he was from and so on and the waitress was so nice unlike other ones we ever had at different restureants. We gotta some pics together and what not. It was funny how Toto and I looked like twins on what we were wearing (color wise) and how are hair color was the same as well.
After Red Robin we went to target just to brows around for the fun of it and I told Toto I hope we are not boring you out and he said we weren't which is a good thing. After target we headed back to Prospect to drop off Toto and we were still having a good time just talking aboiut things and I'm blessed I got to know him even more then before.
Once we dropped him off I didn't want him to leave because he is such an awesome guy. He gave me a nice big hug which felt nice... and no I don't mean that in a werid way either.
-The End <3
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Thoughts on things that came to my mind...
It came to my attenion that people ask me when my baby is due when I'm not freakin pregs, duh. People need to grow up and act their freakin ass age and the funny part is the ones who ask end up having a baby or has a baby already... so even if I was pregs who gives a crap at least I'm old enough to have one unlike these 14 - 19 year olds, psh.
Another thing about babies... people have babies just so they can have state support which I think its fu*ked up. You don't have a baby cause of money from the state to help out not just the baby but for your own damn good, have one to have a family with the one you love.
I'm sick of people getting on state (without a baby) when they don't have a disability or has a good damn ass job, seriously. I know one couple who both have jobs and makes good money and they get state and the ones who doesn't work or doesn't have enough hours to work doesn't, WTF!! There are people out there selling drugs and they get state as well FU*K that SH*T!!!
If you don't like what I said oh well its my opinion and we all have the right to say how we feel on things as well.
Now another thing some people think its stupid or lame of me to date my man cause he is 40... hello people do the effin math 16 years apart isn't freakin bad at all. There are young sluts out there who date really old guys just for money, now thats sick. Plus there are people out there who are 20 years apart and thats not even bad. All that matters is the love, and thats it. I don't give 2 sh*ts what people think about me dating the one I love the most. A lot of people are truely happy for us, so ha.
-Then End
Another thing about babies... people have babies just so they can have state support which I think its fu*ked up. You don't have a baby cause of money from the state to help out not just the baby but for your own damn good, have one to have a family with the one you love.
I'm sick of people getting on state (without a baby) when they don't have a disability or has a good damn ass job, seriously. I know one couple who both have jobs and makes good money and they get state and the ones who doesn't work or doesn't have enough hours to work doesn't, WTF!! There are people out there selling drugs and they get state as well FU*K that SH*T!!!
If you don't like what I said oh well its my opinion and we all have the right to say how we feel on things as well.
Now another thing some people think its stupid or lame of me to date my man cause he is 40... hello people do the effin math 16 years apart isn't freakin bad at all. There are young sluts out there who date really old guys just for money, now thats sick. Plus there are people out there who are 20 years apart and thats not even bad. All that matters is the love, and thats it. I don't give 2 sh*ts what people think about me dating the one I love the most. A lot of people are truely happy for us, so ha.
-Then End
Something I never thought would happen!!!
Today I woke up and went on facebook and saw the worst thing ever in my life. I can't remember all the right sayings of it but I will try.
My love Ed left comments on what I wrote on Pauls page and one of them was I LOVE YOU PAUL AND YOU ROCK MY SOCKS!! Ed said something about it being to lovey dovey and I was like WHAT!?! I didn't want to think it was him but it was and he knows I only mean that in a friend way not a relationship sence. I started to explain to Ed in a text message but he kept going on and on about it. Then he added that someone saw what I put say it wasn't right of me what I said since Paul is my ex but Ed knows Paul really isn't an ex to me cause we didn't do much really.
As we were going on I started to cry as if Ed did not trust me anymore and I felt like I did not know him anymore as well. I thought it was the end of Ed and I.... I really thought it was. Then he started to say that he loves me and that he did not mean it at all but I did not know what to believe anymore at all. It was an emotional roller coaster I was on that was never ending.
Ed kept apologizing but I told him NOT to come over my house because I did not want to see his face... but he did anyways. I was in shock that he did, the as I was crying even more and more he start next to me and hold my hand saying how much he loves me and that he didn't mean to let it out that way on what he said but once again I did not know what to believe.
Once he sat on the couch I told him how I felt about the whole thing as I was walking back and forth in the living room looking and sounding all serious which I was. After I was done explaining myself I was left speechless with nothing else to say. I sat on the couch thinking to myself what to do but I still was not sure of what.
I took off the necklace he gave me for x-mas cause it was hard wearing it for what he put me threw on what he said. I went back over and sat next to him and took his hand put the necklace in his hand and said "your mom would be ashamed of you right now".... which is true because she even said if he leaves me or what not she would get extremely mad at him. He got up and put the necklace on the coffee table and started to pour his heart out to me on sorry he was and everything. As he was going on I started to cry again but way more worse then before. I told him how I felt again but more, like how he humiliated me, hurt me...etc.
Then after we just calmed down and I thought to myself should I be mad at him for what he said? but I had a change of heart of the matter afterwords. Outta no wheres I said I LOVE YOU with smiles on our faces then we started to kiss and make up. I asked him personally.. did you mean to say what you said?... he was like no that was not the real me... I'm NOT like that at all. He promised to me he would not do it again and NOT listen to that person whoever they are to do that to me.
After everything we've talked about threw out the day about the issue we got over it. I told him you know what lets forget that this even happened because its a bunch of drama from someone who tried to screw us over so we won't be together over something stupid. Ed knows I love Paul only as a friend... but some jerk told him that was not right of me and had him respond in away I never thought he would. I am blessed that we made it threw... I really am. After all I knew he it was not the real him who said that.
Here is a text message I've gotten from Ed that I love: "I totally didn't, thats not the real me.... the man u love is the real me."
I LOVE YOU EDWARD T JOHNSON FOREVER AND ALWAYS XOXOOXOXOX!!!! AND NO ONE FU*KS UP OUR RELATIONSHIP LIKE THAT, HECK NO!!!! <3
My love Ed left comments on what I wrote on Pauls page and one of them was I LOVE YOU PAUL AND YOU ROCK MY SOCKS!! Ed said something about it being to lovey dovey and I was like WHAT!?! I didn't want to think it was him but it was and he knows I only mean that in a friend way not a relationship sence. I started to explain to Ed in a text message but he kept going on and on about it. Then he added that someone saw what I put say it wasn't right of me what I said since Paul is my ex but Ed knows Paul really isn't an ex to me cause we didn't do much really.
As we were going on I started to cry as if Ed did not trust me anymore and I felt like I did not know him anymore as well. I thought it was the end of Ed and I.... I really thought it was. Then he started to say that he loves me and that he did not mean it at all but I did not know what to believe anymore at all. It was an emotional roller coaster I was on that was never ending.
Ed kept apologizing but I told him NOT to come over my house because I did not want to see his face... but he did anyways. I was in shock that he did, the as I was crying even more and more he start next to me and hold my hand saying how much he loves me and that he didn't mean to let it out that way on what he said but once again I did not know what to believe.
Once he sat on the couch I told him how I felt about the whole thing as I was walking back and forth in the living room looking and sounding all serious which I was. After I was done explaining myself I was left speechless with nothing else to say. I sat on the couch thinking to myself what to do but I still was not sure of what.
I took off the necklace he gave me for x-mas cause it was hard wearing it for what he put me threw on what he said. I went back over and sat next to him and took his hand put the necklace in his hand and said "your mom would be ashamed of you right now".... which is true because she even said if he leaves me or what not she would get extremely mad at him. He got up and put the necklace on the coffee table and started to pour his heart out to me on sorry he was and everything. As he was going on I started to cry again but way more worse then before. I told him how I felt again but more, like how he humiliated me, hurt me...etc.
Then after we just calmed down and I thought to myself should I be mad at him for what he said? but I had a change of heart of the matter afterwords. Outta no wheres I said I LOVE YOU with smiles on our faces then we started to kiss and make up. I asked him personally.. did you mean to say what you said?... he was like no that was not the real me... I'm NOT like that at all. He promised to me he would not do it again and NOT listen to that person whoever they are to do that to me.
After everything we've talked about threw out the day about the issue we got over it. I told him you know what lets forget that this even happened because its a bunch of drama from someone who tried to screw us over so we won't be together over something stupid. Ed knows I love Paul only as a friend... but some jerk told him that was not right of me and had him respond in away I never thought he would. I am blessed that we made it threw... I really am. After all I knew he it was not the real him who said that.
Here is a text message I've gotten from Ed that I love: "I totally didn't, thats not the real me.... the man u love is the real me."
I LOVE YOU EDWARD T JOHNSON FOREVER AND ALWAYS XOXOOXOXOX!!!! AND NO ONE FU*KS UP OUR RELATIONSHIP LIKE THAT, HECK NO!!!! <3
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Love and Friendship
This is decidcated to my best friend Paul <3
We go back Apirl of 2009 where we met off of okcupid. To me Paul ways a very sweet guy and nice to talk too. I never thought I can be friends with such an amazing person who wasn't on there just for ass. Over the time of being friends around this time in auguest we had feelings for each-other and started to go out. I loved him very much but at times it was hard seeing him due to the distence since I live in Naugatuck and he he is East Haven. I told him how I felt and it hurt him a lot and it hurted me as well that I had to let him go because of the distence though I wish I didn't but we both thought it was the best thing to do.
After awhile I did miss him a lot and took him back because I couldn't help it and I don't know why. He was so happy to be with me again but then again things didn't work out... and he was always asking my friend Jenna when is Lindsey going to come down and see me. That kind of upseted me that he went behind my back to ask her no offence but if that was the case I wish he comfortned me about the matter. I was always out with my friends and had no time to see him and I felt so bad but once again the distence was so hard. I feel like a major asshole taken him back.. not cause he upseted me no its just I let him back in my life then let him go again for the same reason and I hated myself because of that and every day I still hate myself for it.
We did have a fight at one moment due to miss understanding each-other on a matter but I'm glad I don't even remember what it is about. I am truely blessed we've made it threw the tuff time together because I wasn't going to leave him behind and not be his friend, no way. Paul is a sweet heart... yes I may have hurt him but he understands why and he forgave me... thats what I LOVE about him.
Threw out the months our friendship grew stronger then ever. He would drive up when he could so we can hang out on my break in between my hours at work and when I can once or twice a month I drive down to see him just to hang out and have a good time. Every time we hang out I always won't forget what we do with each-other. I also do remember going swimming with him at my best friend Jenna's house as well... haa good old days for sure. Never in a dual moment do I look back and think about not breaking up with him but I did because look where it got to us now. Even though breaking up with someone may seem bad... but some times doing the wrong thing for a good reason brings people together even more... may not seem like it but in most cases it does like this one. If I did not leave Paul I felt like we would hurt each-other even more not seeing each-other and going banana's over things that make no sence. After all we were only ment to be friends but in the long run we gave it a try as in being a couple.
I love how we would laugh and talking about random things like my best friends cat BoB lol (dont ask). Paul is such an amazing friend and he'll always have place in my heart and we always have each-others backs as well no matter what we go threw every day in our life's. My current boyfriend trustiest me so much to hang out with Paul and thinks he is so fun to chill with because we all hang out together too. Paul doesn't get jealous or mad when its just the 3 of us hanging together and thats pretty sweet. We will deff have more fun together and I don't give 2 shits if people think its wrong of me to hang out with Paul just cause he is my ex but to me I don't consider him my ex really even if we dated 2 times. My man also added... "Paul is a lucky guy to have such a person like you Lindsey in his life.. not just me!!"
<3 Me
We go back Apirl of 2009 where we met off of okcupid. To me Paul ways a very sweet guy and nice to talk too. I never thought I can be friends with such an amazing person who wasn't on there just for ass. Over the time of being friends around this time in auguest we had feelings for each-other and started to go out. I loved him very much but at times it was hard seeing him due to the distence since I live in Naugatuck and he he is East Haven. I told him how I felt and it hurt him a lot and it hurted me as well that I had to let him go because of the distence though I wish I didn't but we both thought it was the best thing to do.
After awhile I did miss him a lot and took him back because I couldn't help it and I don't know why. He was so happy to be with me again but then again things didn't work out... and he was always asking my friend Jenna when is Lindsey going to come down and see me. That kind of upseted me that he went behind my back to ask her no offence but if that was the case I wish he comfortned me about the matter. I was always out with my friends and had no time to see him and I felt so bad but once again the distence was so hard. I feel like a major asshole taken him back.. not cause he upseted me no its just I let him back in my life then let him go again for the same reason and I hated myself because of that and every day I still hate myself for it.
We did have a fight at one moment due to miss understanding each-other on a matter but I'm glad I don't even remember what it is about. I am truely blessed we've made it threw the tuff time together because I wasn't going to leave him behind and not be his friend, no way. Paul is a sweet heart... yes I may have hurt him but he understands why and he forgave me... thats what I LOVE about him.
Threw out the months our friendship grew stronger then ever. He would drive up when he could so we can hang out on my break in between my hours at work and when I can once or twice a month I drive down to see him just to hang out and have a good time. Every time we hang out I always won't forget what we do with each-other. I also do remember going swimming with him at my best friend Jenna's house as well... haa good old days for sure. Never in a dual moment do I look back and think about not breaking up with him but I did because look where it got to us now. Even though breaking up with someone may seem bad... but some times doing the wrong thing for a good reason brings people together even more... may not seem like it but in most cases it does like this one. If I did not leave Paul I felt like we would hurt each-other even more not seeing each-other and going banana's over things that make no sence. After all we were only ment to be friends but in the long run we gave it a try as in being a couple.
I love how we would laugh and talking about random things like my best friends cat BoB lol (dont ask). Paul is such an amazing friend and he'll always have place in my heart and we always have each-others backs as well no matter what we go threw every day in our life's. My current boyfriend trustiest me so much to hang out with Paul and thinks he is so fun to chill with because we all hang out together too. Paul doesn't get jealous or mad when its just the 3 of us hanging together and thats pretty sweet. We will deff have more fun together and I don't give 2 shits if people think its wrong of me to hang out with Paul just cause he is my ex but to me I don't consider him my ex really even if we dated 2 times. My man also added... "Paul is a lucky guy to have such a person like you Lindsey in his life.. not just me!!"
<3 Me
Cell Phone
Every time I hear "Lindsey another cell phone?!"... I wanna shoot someone lol. NEVER in my damn life have I had to go threw so many cell phones, seriously I mean that. Once we were done with having AT&T as a company we changed to verizon.. They had good phones... the first one I had (The Droid) wasn't a bad cell phone until it started having major problems... so I got rid of that one and got the Motorola Droid and the cell phone was amazing lol. Me, my man, and our friend Paul came across a big problem and yes I mean a big one... the bill was so bad and we didn't download no crap or anything and we were like forget this we need to get rid of them for good cause even though we all pitch in for the bill this one was way to pricey. I was thinking who we should go too... then I saw this poster on the Sprints window telling about this awesome plan it was the $69.99 one for of course one person but they had a family plan with the same futures as that one had for a little under $200 for 3 people... thats not bad. We all got the LG Rumor 2 but as for me it wasn't working for me but my best friend Paul got me the LG Rumor Touch (Purple) now it was a good cell phone and I loved it a lot. It was perfect for me and what I had to do but then something happened it froozed and shut off when it wanted too without me pushing any buttons. I felt so bad cause my best friend got it for me but he doesn't want me to feel bad cause it wasn't my fault. Now I got another cell phone... if it wasn't for the 2 crappy cell phone companys I had before (AT&T / Verizon) then I wouldn't have this problem. Sometimes I wish I started with Sprint and NO one else. Another thing its not my fault I had so many cell phones. I'm not living to have the "next thing" so to say when it comes to cell phones. So if you think I go threw cell phones cause I want the "next thing" of cell phones well you are 100% wrong suckers!!!
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