Love and Friendship

This is decidcated to my best friend Paul <3

We go back Apirl of 2009 where we met off of okcupid. To me Paul ways a very sweet guy and nice to talk too. I never thought I can be friends with such an amazing person who wasn't on there just for ass. Over the time of being friends around this time in auguest we had feelings for each-other and started to go out. I loved him very much but at times it was hard seeing him due to the distence since I live in Naugatuck and he he is East Haven. I told him how I felt and it hurt him a lot and it hurted me as well that I had to let him go because of the distence though I wish I didn't but we both thought it was the best thing to do. 

After awhile I did miss him a lot and took him back because I couldn't help it and I don't know why. He was so happy to be with me again but then again things didn't work out... and he was always asking my friend Jenna when is Lindsey going to come down and see me. That kind of upseted me that he went behind my back to ask her no offence but if that was the case I wish he comfortned me about the matter. I was always out with my friends and had no time to see him and I felt so bad but once again the distence was so hard. I feel like a major asshole taken him back.. not cause he upseted me no its just I let him back in my life then let him go again for the same reason and I hated myself because of that and every day I still hate myself for it.

We did have a fight at one moment due to miss understanding each-other on a matter but I'm glad I don't even remember what it is about. I am truely blessed we've made it threw the tuff time together because I wasn't going to leave him behind and not be his friend, no way. Paul is a sweet heart... yes I may have hurt him but he understands why and he forgave me... thats what I LOVE about him. 

Threw out the months our friendship grew stronger then ever. He would drive up when he could so we can hang out on my break in between my hours at work and when I can once or twice a month I drive down to see him just to hang out and have a good time. Every time we hang out I always won't forget what we do with each-other. I also do remember going swimming with him at my best friend Jenna's house as well... haa good old days for sure. Never in a dual moment do I look back and think about not breaking up with him but I did because look where it got to us now. Even though breaking up with someone may seem bad... but some times doing the wrong thing for a good reason brings people together even more... may not seem like it but in most cases it does like this one. If I did not leave Paul I felt like we would hurt each-other even more not seeing each-other and going banana's over things that make no sence. After all we were only ment to be friends but in the long run we gave it a try as in being a couple.

I love how we would laugh and talking about random things like my best friends cat BoB lol (dont ask). Paul is such an amazing friend and he'll always have place in my heart and we always have each-others backs as well no matter what we go threw every day in our life's. My current boyfriend trustiest me so much to hang out with Paul and thinks he is so fun to chill with because we all hang out together too. Paul doesn't get jealous or mad when its just the 3 of us hanging together and thats pretty sweet. We will deff have more fun together and I don't give 2 shits if people think its wrong of me to hang out with Paul just cause he is my ex but to me I don't consider him my ex really even if we dated 2 times. My man also added... "Paul is a lucky guy to have such a person like you Lindsey in his life.. not just me!!"



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