Today I woke up and went on facebook and saw the worst thing ever in my life. I can't remember all the right sayings of it but I will try.
My love Ed left comments on what I wrote on Pauls page and one of them was I LOVE YOU PAUL AND YOU ROCK MY SOCKS!! Ed said something about it being to lovey dovey and I was like WHAT!?! I didn't want to think it was him but it was and he knows I only mean that in a friend way not a relationship sence. I started to explain to Ed in a text message but he kept going on and on about it. Then he added that someone saw what I put say it wasn't right of me what I said since Paul is my ex but Ed knows Paul really isn't an ex to me cause we didn't do much really.
As we were going on I started to cry as if Ed did not trust me anymore and I felt like I did not know him anymore as well. I thought it was the end of Ed and I.... I really thought it was. Then he started to say that he loves me and that he did not mean it at all but I did not know what to believe anymore at all. It was an emotional roller coaster I was on that was never ending.
Ed kept apologizing but I told him NOT to come over my house because I did not want to see his face... but he did anyways. I was in shock that he did, the as I was crying even more and more he start next to me and hold my hand saying how much he loves me and that he didn't mean to let it out that way on what he said but once again I did not know what to believe.
Once he sat on the couch I told him how I felt about the whole thing as I was walking back and forth in the living room looking and sounding all serious which I was. After I was done explaining myself I was left speechless with nothing else to say. I sat on the couch thinking to myself what to do but I still was not sure of what.
I took off the necklace he gave me for x-mas cause it was hard wearing it for what he put me threw on what he said. I went back over and sat next to him and took his hand put the necklace in his hand and said "your mom would be ashamed of you right now".... which is true because she even said if he leaves me or what not she would get extremely mad at him. He got up and put the necklace on the coffee table and started to pour his heart out to me on sorry he was and everything. As he was going on I started to cry again but way more worse then before. I told him how I felt again but more, like how he humiliated me, hurt me...etc.
Then after we just calmed down and I thought to myself should I be mad at him for what he said? but I had a change of heart of the matter afterwords. Outta no wheres I said I LOVE YOU with smiles on our faces then we started to kiss and make up. I asked him personally.. did you mean to say what you said?... he was like no that was not the real me... I'm NOT like that at all. He promised to me he would not do it again and NOT listen to that person whoever they are to do that to me.
After everything we've talked about threw out the day about the issue we got over it. I told him you know what lets forget that this even happened because its a bunch of drama from someone who tried to screw us over so we won't be together over something stupid. Ed knows I love Paul only as a friend... but some jerk told him that was not right of me and had him respond in away I never thought he would. I am blessed that we made it threw... I really am. After all I knew he it was not the real him who said that.
Here is a text message I've gotten from Ed that I love: "I totally didn't, thats not the real me.... the man u love is the real me."
I LOVE YOU EDWARD T JOHNSON FOREVER AND ALWAYS XOXOOXOXOX!!!! AND NO ONE FU*KS UP OUR RELATIONSHIP LIKE THAT, HECK NO!!!! <3
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